(Possibly) Final Thoughts

Over the past couple of years, I have intermittently posted my thoughts here on this blog. I enjoyed writing and I particularly enjoyed having people tell me they enjoyed my writing. I have come to realize over the past few months that I have been writing for the validation of the praise it often brought me. The last several months have brought quite a few changes in the way I look at life and also they way I see myself. For the first time in my life, I’m pretty comfortable with who I am. The upshot of that is that I don’t really need the validation I get from the praise of other people. I might like it, but I don’t NEED it. With that realization has come a rather severe drop in my motivation to write. I still enjoy writing to a certain extent, but in the future I will do it for different reasons.  I have long aspired to write a book and maybe I will still do that. I don’t know. Time is an issue. I’m not young anymore. Although I’m not old, per se, I am more and more conscious of the passage of time. There are still things I want to do that require the time I would spend writing.

One thing I am definitely doing is taking leave of this blog, possibly forever. It has served its purpose for me and now I need to get away from it because it ties me to a time in my life I can no longer relate to. The freedom I was seeking is now at hand and a new season of life stands before me. Maybe I’ll start a new blog some day. Maybe not.

I leave you with a few random parting thoughts…

I have not gotten a lot out of the current “social networking” trend. It seems to me that myspace and facebook have devalued the word friend almost to the point of meaninglessness. I currently have approximately 274 “friends” on facebook. Of those, I probably have met between 50 and 75 face to face or over the phone. While the others are very nice people, I’m sure, they are truly not my friends. Their lives will be no different without me nor will mine change without them. I’m not shutting down my facebook account, just leaving it to fend for itself. Maybe I’ll visit every now and then. The upshot is that I’m trying to get off the grid as much as it’s possible to do these days. No one really cares what I’m having for dinner or doing this afternoon anyway.

I recently downgraded my iPhone for a less fancy “smart” phone like the one I used to have. All the apps and gizmos really weren’t doing that much for me, and I totally enjoy having a cell phone that makes calls reliably. Sorry Apple. Lower tech just works better for me.

If you aren’t happy with yourself, no one else can make you happy. The converse is also true. In fact you can spend years trying to make someone happy and they will not even realize you were trying. Happiness, contentment and peace all come from inside you. They are a gift from God. You can’t get them from someone else.

Safety is highly overrated. All of us will die some day. The only question is whether we will really live in the mean time. I find that as I get older I regret not taking more chances. There’s still time, though, and I think I’m going to take a few.

A few things I want to do in the time I have left:

Visit Fiji. My Dad was there during WWII. I have always wanted to see it in person.

See Alaska.  There’s just something about it that calls to me. I don’t think I could live there, but I really want to experience it for a brief time anyway.

Become competent enough to live in the wilds on my own without fear. That just means knowing enough to not be totally dependent on someone else in a situation where no one else will be there. I am drawn to the wilderness in this season of my life. It would be foolish to neglect basic survival skills.

Hike some of the more scenic national parks. I’m compiling a list…

Climb Mt. Whitney. Possibly as soon as Summer 2011. This is an intermediate step to something I really want to do. Which is…

Climb Mt. Kilimanjaro. This is do-able. Celebrities do it for charity. I can do this. I don’t want my life to end without some major adventures to look back on. This one would be a humdinger for me.

Sail the Caribbean in a small sailboat. I love the ocean and I love sailing. See above, re: adventure.

See Europe. The old world is the root of our civilization. I could go anywhere there and be happy.

This isn’t a classic “bucket list” as far as I’m concerned, just some things I want to do. As I said I have become much more aware of the passage of time and I don’t know how much I have left. It’s time to get busy.

Best wishes and love to all of you.  I’m not the most reliable blogger anyway, so you won’t even know I’m gone.

See ya in another life…

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About glennjack

A pilgrim on a long journey. A son of God seeking the face of his Father. A father of 4. A writer, musician and overall deep thinker. A lover of the wild and untamed places. A seeker of truth, justice and peace. I am all of the above, and more.
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13 Responses to (Possibly) Final Thoughts

  1. Marcy Ellis says:

    I am glad you wrote this “possibly” final blog. I found myself reading it and really identifying w/much of what you wrote. I’ve been seeing and feeling much of what you expressed here. I have been feeling, for a long time, the need to just leave certain things behind. I have all but forgotten a website I created several years ago. Every time I try to go back and work on it, update, etc… it’s like trying to pull teeth. I can relate to your feelings on the social networking, etc. as well. I feel like going off the grid. Not becoming a hermit, but cutting loose of things that are working to hold me back more than anything else. I want to enjoy living my life, not be tied to the computer writing what I think about it, etc. I am a writer, too, and know that’s definitely a part of me. But… I’m not in that zone right now. Anyway, thanks and all the best to you!

    • glennjack says:

      Thanks, Marcy! You are one of the people I have enjoyed getting to know a little on facebook, but just as I commented to Dave, that’s not the way I connect with people at the heart level. Some of us are just better at doing that than others. I can relate strongly to what you wrote here about your web site. I had one of those too that I just shut down. Well, we all have to live life the way we see best, and I wish you all of the best God has to offer. Take care!

  2. Glenn… I wish you the best. But remember, as I so often need reminding, you’re life is not summed up in the things you do or accomplish, the work you’ve done or haven’t, the greatness you’ve attained or the humility you’ve found. It is summed up in Him. Him in you and you in Him. There is an adventure right smack dab in the middle of that truth, that reality. It often looks quite ordinary, quite mundane, but He’s in all the nitty gritty plainness of it all.

    I don’t know you really as you don’t really know me. We just passed a few pleasantries back and forth to one another, but I pray you the best, but most of all I pray you be content with Him as your life. I pray this for me as well.

    In Him we live, move, and have our being.

    Peace,

    Dave

    • glennjack says:

      Dave, I have appreciated getting to know you just a litte through facebook. It’s just not the way I connect with people on a heart level. Thank you for your kind words of encouragement. I wish you all the best.

  3. Gabe Turner says:

    I have 474 friends on facebook and you are one of the 3-5 people in that group that I haven’t met in real life :). Ha! I’ve been timid to reach out and converse with strangers on facebook but I’m glad we came across each other.

    I’m glad for your new season – sailing the Caribbean would be great… I think I’d have to depend on someone else to sail though! Maybe I should take some notes on your post…

    all the best,

    Gabe

    • glennjack says:

      Gabe, I regret not connecting with you when I was in San Diego. I’m sorry we didn’t get the chance to meet face to face. Take care! If you are ever in Austin…

  4. elise cole says:

    Hey– best wishes to you as you embark on this new phase of life. I’ve enjoyed your blog, and hope you truly can live wild and free. May God bless you abundantly and draw you close to Him.

  5. Robin says:

    Glenn, what you wrote pretty much sums up the way I have felt for so long..the only reason i have facebook is because i moved away and wanted to feel “connected” to people. Too many people are on here trying to feel validated or better about themselves or whatever and really all its doing is tearing people apart and causing more trouble. Im happy for your decisions and I hope you get to do everything that you want. Dont ever doubt if you are a great man or dad..i would have been so lucky to have a dad like you :}

    • glennjack says:

      Thank you, Robin. I appreciate your encouragement. I really miss you! I hope we will get a chance to see you and your darling baby girl some time soon.

  6. Tim says:

    well, I for one hope you start a new blog or continue writing elsewhere. There is a reason why I linked your blog to mine 🙂

    I still enjoy Facebook, but mainly as a supplement to RL friendships and keeping in touch with family. I do have “friends” on there I never talk to though. 🙂

    • glennjack says:

      Tim, the amount of response I have gotten from this both here and elsewhere has started me thinking about redefining the overall approach to this blog rather than retiring it. I have some ideas. Thanks for your encouragement. I’ll keep you posted. No pun intended…

  7. Tim says:

    if you are concerned about “motives”. Ie, writing your blog to receive comments about them, I am pretty sure that WordPress has a feature that allows you to disable them. That way you can write all you want and not have to think who might read it or not.

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